Lessons in Gratitude Day 750

It has been a long week of the kinds of ups and downs and side-to-sides that can only come with another wild ride on Mephistopheles the mechanical bull. At least this wasn’t one of those high octane rides when it’s all you can do to hang on for the requisite eight seconds before sailing through the air and either landing in sawdust and padding or landing neatly on your feet or tucking and rolling gracefully up to a standing position. No, this was a slow and steady swinging and swaying, whipping and bucking. I’m a little tired and sore but none the worse for wear. And so here I am at last on Friday, squinting at my computer having left my computer glasses on my desk at work. Good thing I have to go to work tomorrow to participate in an event our office is hosting. Then I will be on vacation, thank the gods.
So because I am exhausted and still have to pack and loads to do either before I sleep or waking at my usual 5:45 a.m., I decided to spin the RNG wheel and let providence select tonight’s lesson in gratitude. Sometimes when I spin the wheel it lands on a posting that isn’t resonating with me and I have to spin it a few more times, or give up on it altogether and write from scratch. Tonight I’m pleased to have landed on one of my favorite topics and the one them about which I’ve written a great deal over the past two years: family. They continue to be a source of joy, strength and connection for me. Enjoy this post from last July 2012.

Tonight I am grateful for my family. I am so fortunate to have siblings who care about me and who care about one another. As I sort through what I need to do in the next few weeks to decide my next move, I have been able to talk through potential scenarios with various members of my family. Some have helped me financially as I’ve navigated through the challenging straits of unemployment and others have offered suggestions, ideas, and help in other valuable ways. I have had moments over the past several months when I wasn’t sure how I was going to “make it,” how I could keep it all together–a roof over our heads, reliable transportation to get Jared and me to work or other places we needed to go, even food in the fridge. I realized that no matter how difficult things might get, I have family who will do whatever they can to assist me or any of my other siblings for that matter.

It has been hard for me to reach out and ask for help. At times it has felt like my current life circumstances have been visited upon me because of decisions I made with my eyes wide open. To some folks watching from the outside they probably didn’t look like the wisest decisions I’d made, still, no one said anything  much about them to me beyond a mild, “Are you sure you want to do that?” And now, when looking back in hindsight at where I’ve landed, no one has said to me, “Well, it’s your own fault you ended up where you are…” Partly that’s really not the Chamblee way–we’re mostly too polite and non-confrontational to say anything like that. But the other thing operating here is that we support one another.

While I’ve rarely had more in the way of financial largesse to offer various members of my family, I have tried to offer support in other ways that I could give, particularly of my time. I am a good listener and, ironically, a good helper for people trying to sort through various issues in their lives. It was why I studied to become a life coach–so much of my life had already been spent guiding, mentoring, and advising people that coaching seemed a natural extension of that. So there have been many times over the past few years when I’ve been able to offer sound, practical, emotional support to one or other of my siblings who needed to talk through some of what was going on in their lives. And I know I’ve made a difference.

I cannot imagine what my life would be like without my siblings. Tonight before I rest my head on my pillow and close my eyes to go to sleep I will pray for each of them, wishing good things for each of them, for their partners and their children. I’ve prayed for them throughout my life, so this is not unusual per se. But tonight, name by name I will bring each individual to mind and heart and offer thanksgiving for who they are. I am grateful and blessed to have them in my life.  I look forward to the day when I can give back to them  for their love and support.

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