Today I was able to spend quality time talking with two of my siblings and their partners. I remain so appreciative of each of my siblings and the uniqueness they each possess. As I think through what’s next for my life, their insights, experiences and ideas are and will continue to be an important part of my process. I am grateful for their thoughtful listening as I poured out concern after concern about upcoming decisions I have to make that have serious implications for me and my children. How wonderful it is to have the benefit of “the multitude of counselors.” I have also been made physically comfortable and everything I’ve needed has been provided. My niece even loaned me her guitar, so I can keep my daily playing habit unbroken (though I am well past the 21 days of the initial challenge.)
The next few days, indeed the next few weeks will require from me a measure of faith. I will have to listen carefully for the voice of wisdom–both my own inner knowing and that of the Divine–to hear and know clearly what steps to take. I am deeply hopeful that I get the clear guidance that I need. My “cosmic Cuz” encouraged me to let go and know that I won’t fall, but will be caught and held safe. I know this to be true; there are many times when I’ve been near the edge (or perhaps even fallen off) and have always been caught or landed in a soft place. I will need to draw upon that awareness and that faith as I continue to walk this path.
Tomorrow I will be before many different people, many of whom will be evaluating my abilities, experiences, backgrounds and talents. I will put myself out there, talk about who I am, what I’ve done, and what I can do. I will be asked lots of questions and I will likewise be asking lots of questions. And at the end of the long day, I will have some thinking to do. Then, I will be on the plane headed back home where I will reenter my life of the past few months–meditating, chauffeuring, job seeking, volunteering, writing, walking, connecting, etc. And of course gratitude will be part of it all, as it has been–not just over these 81 days, but across the majority of my life. Now it is a much more intentional part of my daily life, but it has always been there. I appreciate my parents–my mother in particular–for instilling in me a sense of gratitude for all the many diverse and wonderful people and things in my life.
Tonight I will rest, tomorrow I will work hard, and tomorrow night I will be back in here, briefly sharing my day and my gratitude with you. Thank you as always for sharing this journey with me.
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