Uh oh, y’all….It’s going to be one of those accursed blinking cursor days. Earlier today I had a lot more to say than I do now. I’ve engaged in a number of interesting conversations today some of which were with people I hadn’t talked to for a while. They were for the most part rich, generative, thought-provoking discussions with people I know well and with whom I have a great deal of trust and love. What I was reminded of during all the listening and talking I did today was how much we are given wisdom for ourselves and to share with others. It is most often through my interactions with others that I discover what I need to know for myself; in sharing from the reservoir of wisdom that I possess and receiving the benefit of their wisdom.
Ugh! Tonight is not going to be one of my more articulate writing nights. I can feel lack of clear, concise communication coming on like the fog creeping through the Golden Gate. So tonight I will forego trying to be pithy and deep and will share simple gratitude as best I can.
I am grateful for the people in my life. From first thing this morning my daughter’s cheery good morning text message (“Good morning mommy!!!!!) at 7:35 through my first phone conversation of the day at 8 a.m. talking to my friend Marcus, all the way through this evening’s conversation with a friend and colleague who wanted to check in and exchange some ideas about how to get “unstuck” in some areas of her life. Altogether I probably spent about 5 hours on the phone and another hour and a half in person in various discussions about life issues. For an introvert like me, spending all that time in conversation could be exhausting, but I felt energized. Why? Because for at least much of that time I was talking with folks about their passions, what brings them to life, what they’re interested in. And in talking with them about that, it fueled my own passion and aliveness. It reminded me that one of things I really get excited about is getting people in touch with what they’re really excited about. Sooner or later, by hook or by crook I’m going to find myself working with people in this way on a regular basis. It isn’t just about hanging out my life coaching shingle, though that might become part of the equation. It’s about meeting people where they are, helping them gently do the excavation that’s often necessary to help them unbury their dreams and passions, and watching them take their first steps in the direction of those dreams. And in the process I’m birthing my own dreams. It’s just a matter of time.
How cool is that? To be the midwife present at the bringing forth of new dreams while also delivering my own. (Okay, perhaps not quite the metaphor I am wanting here…I told you I’m not at my articulate best tonight!) Trust me, it’s a beautiful thing. Clarity is coming, I can feel it emerging right before my eyes. I’m becoming clearer about what I want to be doing with my life at this time. I’m looking forward to seeing how that aligns with finding the right opportunity to earn income doing it. It kind of feels like a foot race to see who gets to the finish line first. Will the creative enterprises I am now engaging in bear fruit in time or will I have to go the more conventional somewhat less creative route of getting a job that might not feed my passions but will allow me to meet my obligations? Hmmmm. Time will tell. In the meantime I am grateful for the ideas and creative energy that is being sparked in various parts of my life and not expend energy worrying about how it’s all going to come together. In short, I’m going to keep the faith and enjoy this sometimes wild ride on the mechanical bull. One thing it’s not is boring! May we all know happiness and the source of happiness. So be it!
