Tonight is one for simple gratitude. Tonight’s post will be brief. It has been a good week–remarkable in its ordinariness. I did the things I normally do during a given week–searched positions postings looking for possible jobs, did my volunteer work, did some reading and writing and thinking, and worked on my taxes. I also played my guitar and sang, walked in the park taking pictures of the white egret and the great blue heron, and played my cedar flutes. Each of these are various ways of connecting to things that I love. I am grateful for the time I’ve been able to spend rediscovering these passions. It is not yet be clear to me how these passions will align with the work that I’m seeking, or next steps I might take in looking to create income for myself, but I am grateful nonetheless.
This morning I woke early, as often happens, and spent time in quiet reflection and took some moments to write before starting into my day. Interestingly I was writing about one of my greatest fears. I think sometimes the things we fear are so scary that we don’t want to go there, to explore them. This morning I wasn’t feeling anxious as I wrote about my fear, so I was able to think more deeply and feel into those things that seem most frightening. In thinking about the future, particularly when things are as uncertain as they’ve been, it’s helpful to confront the things that are scary. I’m grateful for all that I’m learning from the experiences of the last year. Even the hard stuff, perhaps especially the hard stuff, have strengthened me in ways I am still discovering.
Tonight I am tired and relatively inarticulate (Mama said there’ll be days like this), so I am signing out early. I’m hoping to have a little more energy and therefore more to say tomorrow. In the meantime, may we all know happiness and the root of happiness. May it be so!
